Last night I had a dream, I dreamt that I was in America, I was in one of those all you can eat diners and i was with a bunch of people. I have no clue who these people were but they were kind and friendly and kept bringing me food (my kind of people!) Then I realised that I was going to Orlando so I started to prepare for my journey. I had no real plan, I had not researched this journey so I thought, I'll just jump in the car and drive a few hours to get there, but then I realised I was in Chicago, and then I woke up. I've since googled that Chicago is a 17hour drive from Orlando. So I though to myself what does this mean? I often use my dreams as a way of changeling information to give to my clients, and then it came to me.
When I quit my toxic job (the scariest thing i've ever done in my life) the job I hated, my goal was to set up a business making and selling soap. I watched a TV programme one day where the presenter was in a beautiful shop full of handmade soap and the owner was showing her how to make it. I'll do that I thought, it looks like fun. I started to make soap, I made a lot of soap! And most of it ended up in the bin. Finally when I got the hang of making soap I started to sell it, it sold it online, on twitter and I would go here there and everywhere doing craft markets. Did I have a plan, a plan about the vision for my business, did I know my numbers, have a marketing plan, have amazing branding, know exactly how much each bar of soap cost to make – erm no! Nada, no clue! At the same time as doing this I had a part time job and was training in reiki, massage and reflexology.
I continued doing this, being mad crazy busy, not knowing whether I was coming or going until I came home from a craft fair one day, exhausted, I had made £80 and the stall fee cost me £40 and I realised that all this soap making was a ton of work for not much money, i'll scale this down and just focus on my holistic therapies, I thought, which is what I did.
The reason i'm telling you this story is that when you do decide to quit your crappy day job, the one that you hate, the one that ties your stomach in knots every time you go in the door, the journey isn't always straightforward. It isn't perfect, you don't need to know exactly what you want to do, you will possibly start things, realise you don't want to do that anymore and change and do something else. You may get a part time job just to tide you over while your business picks up.
It doesn't matter, what does matter is that you do something! Your ego will try and keep you in the same place by telling you any of the following...
I'll quit my job when i've saved up some money
I'll quit when i've finished this training course.
When I get more clients, then i'll quit my job
When my pet parrot dies then i'll quit and start my own business
the list could go on and on and on
In a way I was lucky I had got to the point where I said enough was enough, I cant take this anymore. I don't care if I go bankrupt and end up with nowhere to live, I don't care because no matter what happens I couldn't possibly feel as bad as I feel right now. I was deeply unhappy, unfulfilled, my misery resulted in an eating disorder, I was physically il too and i was 40 years old. I was not where I thought I should be at this point in my life. But i thought If i don't do it now i never will! I remember my last day in work. I was a learning and development exec (a posh name for a trainer) and I was working from home training a bunch of lovely people online. In between training these lovely people, I would cry, I cried all day, I was scared as hell. I had no clue what was in store for me. It was July (the 19th, it's a very important anniversary for me) a warm sunny day and I had the window open and as I sat there crying a butterfly flew in the window, flew round the room and flew out again. What do butterflies mean? Change and transformation.
I din't go bankrupt and I kept a roof over my head, I paid my bills and I made a tons of mistakes, I went on the most amazing journey of my life and it's the best thing i've ever done. I survived. The 19th of July 2012 is a very special date for me, it's the day broke free, the day I finally said i'm doing what I want to do with my life, I'm taking charge now and i'm going to create something amazing. To get there I had to do a TON of work releasing my emotional baggage, letting go of limiting beliefs and creating new empowering ones, building my confidence and self esteem, learning to love myself and doing a ton of forgiveness work. And then I thought maybe I should learn something about business! But the most important work is the mindset work, thats absolutley the most important thing. My journey continues, now I help people to do what I did, as a miraculous manifesting coach I help aspiring ambitious spiritual entrepreneurs quit the crappy 9-5 and build a heart centred business that they love and manifest the life of their dreams. I love what I do because I know with all of my heart that you can do the same.
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